freya46

It's been a week. :-)

Thursday I made a HUGE pot of meat sauce.

Friday, I had 17 people show up between 3pm and midnight to crash in two empty apts. in my building.  Got to sleep around 5 and alarm went off at 8am.

Saturday.  ALL of them were in my apt. at varying times and in varying rooms.  Cooked up 3lbs. of bacon and 3 dozen eggs.  Got everybody, including myself, out the door for Crown.

Spent an awesome day with people I love and more that I *vaguely* tolerate.  Very pleased with our King and Queen.  They are unpretentious, bright and full of fun. :-)  I totally approve.

Didn't stay for feast.  I barely made it through court, to be honest.  Very pleased at the awards given out.

Got to say goodbye to Jocelyn and Frenya in the parking lot... started to cry because I don't know when I'll see them and others from away again.  I HOPE I'll get to Birka, but that depends on my protege Clint and his wife.  I realized that I will miss the folks from outside of IDD much more than the majority of the people in IDD.  Over the past 7 years that I've been lying here, there are approximately 10 people out of the entire Barony who have gone out of their way to give me help and companionship.  And one of them was only just added.  I will miss them but I also know I will see them because most of them will figure out a way to come and visit.  I won't miss the rest.

I find it amazing that these people who have pretty much ignored my existence over these past years are the ones who proclaim the loudest and publicly how much I will be missed.  And I truly don't understand why.  If I will be missed so much, where have they been these past 7 years?  It's fine with me.  I've been over the hurt for a long time now.  I just don't comprehend the arrogance, if that's the word.  Do they really think me that stupid that I will suddenly feel sad about not seeing them again?  I haven't seen them other than at the very occasional event.  Seriously?  I won't miss you.

Sunday was about 3 hours sleep and getting folks out the door.  My schedule was so messed up that when Fred called me at 8:30 to say he was on the way down, I got up, took my *1:00pm* meds, got dressed and went to deal with folks.  Adi stayed back and we went up to make sure the apts. were back to the original.  Then we did some stuff..don't remember what... and she left.  My 1pm alarm went off and I took my meds.  These, unfortunately, happened to be my *1:00am meds.   I couldn't figure out why I was so tired and at about 4pm I fell asleep in front of the laptop.  Woke at 8:30 and had dinner and laid down on the couch.  Returned to the bedroom at 11pm and went to set up my meds for Monday.  And realized I had one empty container too many. THAT's why I fell asleep at 4pm.  Sigh.

The difference between dependence and addiction..... I went to sleep (or tried to) about 4am.  didn't manage to really sleep much because, of course, I didn't take my beds at bedtime due to taking them at 1pm.  Were I an addict, I'd have taken another dose. *grin*

Monday, yesterday, Doron came by at about 3pm.  We went through all my cookbooks and while I still have almost two boxes full, I left quite a number.  I sent him off with three containers of meat sauce and more books to check on line.  Unfortunately, he is not buying my couch as he can't get it up his stairs. :-(  So, for the interim, it will go to Ottawa. I now have 17 boxes packed...or is that 16... 16.  Just checked. :-)

Today I dealt with the Pharmacy for my three months of meds and set up the insurance for the condo to begin on the 7th of June.  I finished off the meat sauce with a toasted burger bun for first meal.  I have taken my meds properly so far. :-)

Now I'm going to set up to forward my mail for the next 6 months. :-)

I am in serious need of packing help.  Anyone in my area who can spare me a couple of hours would be very appreciated.

I find it very sad that when I ask for help and the usual suspects don't respond (because for whatever reason they can't) the only help offered comes from outside of Montreal.

Not surprised, just sad.

So... heard from my HP agent.  They are going to replace the laptop...again.  right now I have an Envy.  These are the links I was sent as to what they are offering.

I neeeeed advice.

http://www.bestbuy.ca/en-CA/product/hewlett-packard-hp-pavilion-17-laptop-silver-amd-a10-5750m-1tb-hdd-8gb-ram-windows-8-1-17-e148ca/10282877.aspx?path=8e7f07ce1a8c727e50ded28c3ef0cc80en02

http://www.bestbuy.ca/en-CA/product/hewlett-packard-hp-pavilion-17-laptop-silver-amd-a6-5200-750gb-hdd-8gb-ram-windows-8-1-17-e128ca/10282878.aspx?path=5a02507640e18fe8c7156a4c8ccfefaaen02

I've reserved my taxi for 5:30 am.  Needless to say, I'm not even going to bother trying to sleep.  I'm pretty well packed and ready to go.  I am not sure I'm ready to be a homeowner, though, at this stage in my life, I'd better get ready. :-)

As of tomorrow, I am upping the Nabilone by 2mg.  I'm hoping that will be enough to get me through the next two months.  It had better.

Once I get back on Friday night, it's time to start the packing in earnest.  I'll have 5 weeks to the move at that point.  I have to get help because I'm not doing well enough on my own.  Last to go is going to be the kitchen and bathroom stuff.

But before that, on Thursday, I get to meat with the contractor for the bathroom. I'm looking forward to that part. :-)

Besides the packing, I have to call Ontario Hydro, OHIP, whoever governs the handicap tags..probably ODSP.  Much phoning.

HELP!!!!!

This is the current state of my affairs.

I am dealing with HP to get a full refund on the laptop I originally bought.  This one is a piece of crap.  I cannot get the damned thing to connect with my printer.  Even when the damned thing is plugged into it.  Because of this, my real estate agt. is driving to Montreal tomorrow so I can sign a piece of fucking paper that I can't get printed out.

The laptop throws DOS boxes into the middle of something I'm doing and I'm back to my desk top.  If I scroll down a page too quickly, I get a lovely light blue (not even my favourite colour of blue) diamond pattern that slowly lowers as the page loads.  2 out of 5 times I'll click on a link and get told Oops, Google cannot connect.  I won't go on.  It's too aggravating.

Videotron replaced their router about 10 days ago.  I am still losing the signal at least twice a night.  It disappears and then comes back on its own.  I know it's the router because it also happens on my iPad.  I'm going to have to contact them again tomorrow.

I just mad my train reservation for Wed. to go to TO to close on my condo.  I'll be back on Friday eve.  I've got 6 weeks left to pack.  FUCK!!!

Between the stress and not getting enough sleep because of the stress, my pain levels are climbing and I do NOT approve.  It's really hard to get stuff done when every step or movement is really painful.

I think I'm having a poor me moment.  Excuse me while I go hide my head. *grin*

Well, I got all the pans washed today.  I'll do the cutlery tomorrow. :-)  I also went for a walk today and instead of taking the shorter route to the mailbox around the corner, I walked down to the Pharmaprix on Sherbrooke near Cavendish and mailed my acceptance of the estimate from Westmount Moving. :-)

Did some shopping at Provigo and headed home.  Much easier this time than that idiot walk home on Sunday.  Even if the roads aren't perfect, at least there are ways around the pitfalls.

Food was a mix... had the chicken soup for brunch.  For supper.. some chopped liver on melba toast, the last of the rice with some butter, the leftover salad from Tuesday night.

Why is it that, with three different prepared dressings in the fridge, I prefer to take a small glass bowl, add olive oil, balsamic and rice vinegar and garlic and pepper, mix it up and put it on the salad?  Why am I incapable of taking a premade item and just using it as is?  I get a rice mix and add onions, mushrooms, garlic and herbs to it.  The whole idea of packaged food is to make my life less difficult.  IT'S NOT WORKING!!!!  *grin*

At some point during my dinner, I wandered into the hallway towards the back room and realized that it smelled.  Unpleasantly.  I went into the living room and got one of my bayberry candles, put in candlestick and set it burning on the bookshelf in the hallway.  Then I put a cone of sandlewood into the bathroom and another type (name escapes me right now) in a stick incense burner on top of the freezer in the dining room.  Absolutely lovely.

I shall be doing more of that and, I decided that in an effort to save electric costs, I'll be using a lot of candles in my new home. :-)

And now, it's off to do contests and surveys while listening to Corb Lund. :-)

Brisket is made, sliced and sitting in the fridge.  Along with the potato kugel.  I need to make another small one for Sam upstairs and latkes for Adi because she is gluten free.  Tomorrow is going to see me turning store bought chicken broth into delicious chicken soup. :-)  A bissel dill and pepper and carrots and it will be lovely. :-)

I think thats it.  I am thinking of steaming up some green veggies as well.

Happy Passover to those who celebrate.  And if you don't, may the next nine days be wonderful. :-)

Dumb.  That's me.

I'm doing some Passover style cooking for Tuesday eve.  Not doing a seder or anything..just the food. :-)

So, needing a variety of foodstuffs and not having a ride, I decided to walk to the Cote St. Luc shopping center.  It was a lovely day and I didn't even need the raincoat.
the walk there was great and not at all difficult.  I went in and did my shopping.  Found the dealcoholized wine I like.  It is really really good and I bought 3 bottles. :-)

Anyhow... walked through the mall to find the restaurant and, while they have a lot of small places, nowhere that I could sit because TC was packed with two bags of groceries.  I noticed a store and walked in.  I walked out with one of those cool gel pillows. :-)  it's airing out right now.

Anyhow..stopped in at McBarf and got a fish filet which I ate standing outside.  Then I made the mistake of walking home.  This is where the DUMB comes into play.  What I SHOULD have done was grab a cab home with my purchases.  Instead, I chose to be an idiot.

I walk on the street because the sidewalks are so uneven that TC is constantly falling over forward and I usually go with him.  Well... the roads are just as bad.  TC went over twice though not with me as I've learned to let him fall.  I stopped him twice and on the second one, one of the bags (containing the bottles, of course) slid off the front.  Luckily nothing broke, but I barely made it the rest of the way home.  Needless to say, I got NOTHING else done.

So, tomorrow is cooking of brisket and potato kugel.  Tuesday is dinner with my youngest, my protegee Adi, her son and, with luck, her spouse. :-)  I'll make the hard boiled eggs on Tuesday as well.

Should I not be on before... I wish everyone a wonderful Passover/Easter. :-)

Thank you all for the prayers and stuff.

I GOT IT!!!!!!!!!



It's been an insane day but..it's mine.  I got the call with the figures that we were waiting for and it's absolutely doable.  And the board is excellent.  So, the only thing they wanted to know was if the closing date could remain the same...April 30.  I said yes.  while it means paying for the two for four months, it gives me time to have the work that I need to do on it.  Wait... that sounds like I'M doing the work.  Let me change that to.. have the work done. *grin*

I'm going to ask Ron again if he'll let me out of my lease early, but I'm not holding out any hope. :-(

So it's going to be an expensive move. :-(

But... I has a new home.  Of to Ottawa tomorrow.

So late this afternoon I get an email from my realtor to say that the agt. of the apt. I had to walk away from has finally gotten the figures in.  YAY!!!!

However, at the same time, I told to go ahead and widen the search a bit.  OY!!!!!  There are about 7 pages and the last two on the first page I WANT!!!  One of them is bigger than what I've got now and less expensive.

I'm seriously rethinking the original.  Thankfully, she'll weed through them for me.  It works through a computer program which sends me EVERYTHING within my parameters.

Prayers, good thoughts, etc.... whatever you can spare from really important things ... like life and death ... would be most appreciated.  I want to go to Ottawa this weekend and come home with a HOME. :-)